He Will Never Know It Was Him

He will never know,
The way my heart races every time he speaks,
The way he makes me smile, and sends a red flourish through my cheeks.
The way I can’t help wanting him,
Even though I know it’s not right.
He will never know,
The way he brings me up every time we speak,
and kills me deep inside every time he leaves.
The way it hurts me to see him in pain,
Though he hurts me time and time again.
He will never know,
The way I felt and still feel,
The way every second I imagined with him felt so real.
The way he will always hold a piece of my heart,
But I must let him go.
He will never know,
My morals keep me strong,
When my heart makes me blind.
No matter how hard it may be,
I have to keep my expectations in mind.